Long time no see

I wasn't here for some time. I'm sorry for that but I was busy writing my work for batchelor's degree. I finally finished it and I am rally excited. If you are wandering my baby is fine and I decided to rise him or her alone. I am still wandering if I will tell the father that he will be a father. What for? He doesn't care after all.

Thinking out loud.....

Have you heard the Ed Sheeran's new song Thinking Out Loud? It is realy beautiful, but it is only a fairytale. It never happen in real life. Men never say those thinks in reality. I have big experience on this field. I think that I was always used only for they pleasure, when they get bored of me they threw me away like used handkerchief. It was realy painful, but let's be honest I should get used to it. With my looks and my annoying charcter it is realy easy to get hurt. It is my foult I am too gullible and I get attached too easily. I have realy big heart so I always want for others to be happy and comfortable and I don't pay attention to what I want and need. Maybe I should start to think about myself, about my needs. I will be responsible for other life now so I should take care of myself and this little human inside me.

From the start

My life was always rather depressing. I was always this ugly one or not thin enought. But I tried not to hear what everyone else was saying. What for? To get more depressed? No, thanks. I was pretty confident until I started dating guys. That was the moment when my life started to be more miserable.

But why in this moment? I had pretty tough childhood. My parents was arguing all the time. My father never respected my mother, he still doesn't respect her lets be honest. So why I picked up this moment for my life to get more miserable? I don't know. Maybe my hormones think for me now.

Say Hi to your new future....

This is the real story of my stupid and freaking life. You may ask how I got to this mess? I don't know! I really don't know. But maybe I will give you some closure and we will find the answer together? I really hope so, because I am confused and have only 8 and a half month to figure my life all over again. Whish me luck! I will really need it!